naamah_darling: The right-side canines of a wolf's skull; the upper canine is made of gold. (Default)
This is a happy entry.

I'm writing. Not, like, every day, but there are days when I want to, feel like I can, and then do it, and there are often more than two of them a week, which is fantastic. Previously, I was stuck at "wanting to."

People have started asking how it's going again.

"It's a mess," I say. The story picks fights with me. It doesn't want to go where I want it to go. I run into logic flaws. Sometimes I need the characters to do something, and only realize when I get there that they would never do that. There isn't always room for everything I want to include, and things get shelved or cut or, best case scenario, put off until later. Sometimes a scene just isn't going well, and I don't know why, and I'm stuck either figuring out what's wrong, tearing it down, and rebuilding it, or pushing through and fixing it in post. Once in a while, I'm just scared of a scene. Some scenes are scary. This whole part of the book is scary, actually. I'm not sure I've built it right, if everyone's motivations seem clear, and the amount of trust they are willing to place in one another -- or withhold from one another -- seems reasonable.

So I run into blocks. Before, these would stall me for weeks, often months. Writing was like this:



I would cry to Sargon, who could sometimes be able to help me through it and sometimes not. I am sure it was annoying for him, and I am annoyed with myself for needing the help. I should have just let the story rest, but I was so afraid of losing it that I couldn't.

Maybe only another writer can understand, but writing was all that kept me from feeling like a complete loss. It was sometimes the only candle in the dark, and I was afraid it was a Babylon candle that would burn down and leave me stranded who knew where. I was so afraid. I held my hands around the little flame of a story and even when I felt so crushed I could not breathe, I gave it what I had, because I love it. The way you will naturally love anything that is warm and makes hunger go away.

Writing is something I need. I make art, and that gives me joy, but writing gives me meaning. To be without it is to be without part of myself. If that's the price of remaining alive to do the other things that give me joy, I'll pay it, but it's painful, like the Little Mermaid walking on knives and glass.

Now, faced with these million little problems, it's like wrangling ornery ferrets. You get a grip on one and it just slips away. Shove one back in the cage and another slips out.

People ask me how it's going, and I say, "It's a mess. I could not be happier about it."

All of these problems are problems that happen when I am writing. They're the equivalent of saying "I set fire to the hotel curtains during the fantastic pervsex I was having last night, and now I have to pay for the damage."

And suddenly, it's easier for me to get through them alone. It still takes me a while, and I still need Sargon, because I sometimes need someone who has read the whole thing to bounce ideas off of. He's a writer, too, which makes him better at pinpointing what is wrong, and why something isn't working. But I can sometimes get through them alone. It's still frustrating, there may be hair-pulling, swearing, brooding, but I finish the fucking chapter. And every time I save another little .doc into that file labeled F&F, it's this flag-waving victory that feels like I won a long race with a heavy jockey.

I was talking to [personal profile] bat_cheva about all this yesterday. (I'm sorry if I bored you.) It's not possible for me to articulate what a difference this "being able to write" thing makes in my ability to Cope With Shit.

I really don't want to go back to the place where I can't do it. I'm scared to death of it. But right now I can, and that makes me happy.

Today I'm working on one of the final scenes on the Nemesis. I am going into a new part of the story. Valor, Vendetta, Rutter, and Max are escaping into the unknown. They are going to meet a person who will be good for them for the first time. They are going into the unknown, half running to and half running from, and none of them can say what is going to happen.

I am doing much the same. My detailed plotting ended here. I have broad strokes, a skeletal outline for the rest. Like, Act III looks like this: Go to the Princess of Texas, find Professor Paracelsus, get into some sort of climactic fight.

Soon now I have to sit down and make some really frightening decisions, and make up some really important stuff. The story, from here out, changes shape. Until now it's been static, unmoving. They're all stuck on the Nemesis, under Savage's paw, and not a whole lot of external plot-related stuff is happening. (I've been too busy writing about fucking.) Now, in Book II, things open out. The world lies ahead, and the gods alone know what's going to happen. And I am right there with them. I'm heading into uncharted waters. I'm not lost, I've got stars to steer by, but it's an awfully big ocean and I'm not the most consistent captain.

I really hope I'm up to it. I hope this phase of being able to work lasts long enough for me to get this done. At this rate, about a chapter a week, I'll be done with this book in December, and with the one after it in October of 2014. That should finish off the series, and then I can move into the three standalone prequels I have planned. I'd like the sailing to be faster, much faster, but this is what I can manage, so this is as fast as I go.

And I hope, when I've finished exploring and come back with treasures and tales, there will be people waiting on the docks to welcome me and share what I've plundered. I hope there's a place for this gigantic thing I'm making. I hope it succeeds. I hope it does its first job of making many, many people very happy, and I hope it does well at its second job of getting me attention and money so I can rest easier on my next expedition.

I hope you're with me.

Now I'm going to go get these kids off the ship. Wish us all luck.
naamah_darling: Picture of a treasure chest with a skull and crossbones on top. My art! (Artistic)
The Golden Mask has started, and the serial has just finished its first week. There's three chapters for your perusal, now. Go take a look! It is seriously the coolest, and you will love it. I'm completely in love with it. I'll try to post regular updates about this one. I've been slacking off too much on that because I've been so damn tired, and I feel awful about that.

Speaking of which, I am tired like it is a full-time job. I've been feeling better overall, but the past month has been exhausting, and I underestimated how long it would take to recover. I want to do something entertaining this weekend, but Jesus, I am too tired to seriously contemplate anything that requires leaving the house or being sociable. I am hoping to feel well enough to go to the writers' meeting tomorrow, or at least hang with friends, but I don't know.

If you have contacted me about something, or I agreed to do paid work for you: please remind me what you needed me to do. I've got a couple things going for Amber, and another bondage pony for an undisclosed recipient, and if there is anything else, let me know. My brain is like a sieve.

I've got Halloween ponies to take pictures of and post pictures of. They're seriously adorable, but I haven't had the energy to take pics yet. I'll probably do that tomorrow. Thrilling. But I get to play with tiny pumpkins, so it's all good.

I am nearly done with a winter-themed baby pony who will, if all goes well, have fairy wings. I've made the wings already, my first attempt, and they aren't bad at all. Not what I was aiming for but still really pretty. I just have to install them. I don't think I'll foul it up, but never say never. I am ready to do it over if I have to. I'm happy learning.

I finished the formatting for Fox's Tale, which means it will be an ebook super-soon. I added a super-sweet and adorable bonus scene that also has lots of sex in it, so if you wanted your Valbrand/Taon/Shennar three-way, well, I made you something cute.

I've plotted out most of the rest of the second Vengeance and Valor book in broad details, and made sketchy jabs at the final book, and will start work on Frontiers and Fables as soon as I clear enough of the other stuff off my table to be able to spend the time on it. There is going to be so much awesome shit in this next book, seriously. Here's where it becomes an adventure. I want it finished, because I want to know what happens, and that's the best motivation to work that I've found yet.

And that's about it for now. I have to sleep, because I have not done that yet today.
naamah_darling: Picture of a treasure chest with a skull and crossbones on top. My art! (Artistic)
I finished Vengeance and Valor.

If you want the numbers, it's 44 chapters, 158,464 words. It's HUGE.

It's only book one out of three that will probably be about the same length, but the book is done.

The job isn't done, the story isn't even close to done, but the book is done.

I have a lot of ironing and filling and spackling and stitching to do in revision, but the book is done.

DONE.

So . . . I believe I am proud of myself. I had a long depressive episode in the middle which stalled me for a couple of years, but I never let the story die. I held on, and I finished it.

I'm a little off-balance, though, because the beginning of it is so . . . slightly absurd, humorous young adult novel-like, it's got a very light, very funny tone. And it just kept getting darker and darker. Not, like, never anything funny or silly, but . . . I can't say it ended on an up note for everyone. And I don't know if I should go back and kind of tone down the beginning, or leave it as it is, with the tone shift paralleling the characters' departure from what is normal for them into what is really a pretty dark and dangerous world. I don't know if it works.

I won't be looking at publishing this until the whole thing is done, because the plot is so complicated and parts of it are changing as things progress, so I am continually having to go back and slip stuff into earlier chapters. I don't want to be locked down by having it out anywhere officially. So, it will take time. But it's happening.

I still love these characters.
naamah_darling: Close cropped image of a blonde ponytailed man with a woman pulling a black stocking tightly around his neck. (BDSM)
FOR ART! Involving MAD SCIENCE!

Anyone have any experience with electroplay? Anyone know anyone into electroplay?

Are y'all/they willing to answer questions about what that feels like?

Stuff I have experienced:

Mild charge from a hand-held defense device (I hesitate to call it a taser, because it was nowhere near that scary). Felt like tattoo fill needles. Divine.

Violet wand play. Felt sticky, and then prickly, and then snappy and sharp and stingy.

TENS unit, pads applied externally to peripheral areas (arms, legs) and to upper back. Felt thrummy and zingy and very nice. I am a fan of this.

Stuff I wanna know about, sensation-wise:

TENS unit or similar devices used externally on the naughty bits.

Inseratable attachments for the TENS unit or similar devices. Any orifice.

Raise your hand if you've had e-stim induced orgasms!

Any authenticating detail I can't ask about because I don't know about it. Something that people who have done it will read and go "Oh, yeah, that happens!", and people who have not done it might find interesting.

Adjectives or similes you'd use to describe the sensation are great.

Anything else I haven't thought to wonder about, but will think of immediately after posting.

This is definitely TMI might feel uncomfortable talking about it territory, but I really, really don't want to get into writing those bits until I've at least talked to some people who have done it. I can't do it myself right now, so secondhand will have to do.

I am having problems with LJ PM right now, apparently, so if you are leery of leaving an anonymous comment, I can be reached by email at Naamah at gmail.
naamah_darling: Close cropped image of a blonde ponytailed man with a woman pulling a black stocking tightly around his neck. (BDSM)
Work on V&V proceeds slowly, but it proceeds. I just checked the count and it's at 32 chapters and 118,548 words. I've added maybe 15,000 words since the beginning of the year, which is . . . abysmal, actually, but what are you going to do?

Anyway, the thing is huge, and I'm only just closing in on the end of Book I. Yes, it's a multi-book affair. I cringe, believe me, I cringe. I never wanted to commit trilogy, but sex scenes take up a lot of space when you write them like I do.

I am kind of in a tight spot with this one; I am going to finish it, but gods alone know how long that will take me. And when I do, I have to decide what to do with it.

If I throw it at an erotica publisher they'd probably bite, since it's really good and the genre is hot right now. That'd be great in terms of publicity, editing, and maybe having someone else to do the frigging cover, or at least having the budget for a cover. (Least favorite part. Ever. Seriously. Doing your own covers? Sucks ass.)

Not so great in terms of length, since most erotica publishers consider a "novel" to be somewhere between 25,000 and 70,000 words.

Not so great in terms of expecting me to produce the sequel, either, so I'd need to finish the whole thing, which might take six years or more.

If we do it on Adventurotica, I'd have to deal with awkward chapter lengths (we usually run chapters at around 2,500 words each, 3x a week; V&V chapters average around 4,000) meaning we might have to drop to 2x a week.

I'd have to deal with a lack of support from a publicity team, pro editors. I'd have to do the cover.

And I'd still have to finish the damn thing before running it, because the last thing I want to do is crap out on people and make them wait years before they get the next book.

But it was popular while I was running it. It could be the thing that makes us, that breaks us out and gets people to start reading.

So I just don't know. I'm excited by the possibilities, but it's frustrating to contemplate. I suppose I just shouldn't do that, then, since it's not like it will be an issue tomorrow, or next week, or next month.

Something they don't talk about, regarding writing and being mentally ill: if you have an illness that fucks up your creativity, you're putting all your ducks in one creative basket. It sinks, you sink. Popping out the next book isn't like "push button, receive bacon." Even for prolific writers, it's not that easy. If you're crazy, you're looking at potentially years of work for each finished product. It's not just a huge investment of energy, it's a huge investment of time. You keep going because that's just what you do, but you will never have the body of work that a not-crazy person will have. You will never get that many chances to write something really extraordinary, so there's all this pressure on you to make everything extraordinary.

So that's sort of depressing in a passive, not-terribly-bothersome way. It's mostly just a frustration of the hope I should be feeling about a new project, only the project isn't new, nor likely to be finished anytime soon.

I love these characters, and I love my setting and all the crazy places in it. I love that I will get to briefly visit Century, KS, which was where Pride and Prostitutes was set, and where Heritage of Steel is also set, way in the future. I love the fact that I will get to write an aircraft-carrier-sized airship brothel. I love the fact that I will get to write about secret treasure vaults and flying islands and scary monsters and bulletproof corsets and beautiful boys. I love Val, who is so much smarter than he thinks, and Vendetta, who is so delightfully wicked and intractably wild. I love Max and Rutter. I love Savage and her little devil cat. I love Fury and Sin. I love all the things I haven't even thought of yet.

I'll finish this, but it's a long haul, and I want it to be over so I can know what happens, because right now? I don't know. I don't know, and it's glorious.
naamah_darling: Cartoony picture of a black panther with curved horns and a red ball in his mouth. He wants to play. (Jandar Sad)
The going off the Seroquel is going well, by which I mean it's fine at the reduced dosage so long as I don't forget a pill.

If I do, it's a lot like the benzodiazepine withdrawal effects I went through when I tapered off the regular clonazepam/temazepam, which I suppose isn't that surprising considering that quetiapine -- Seroquel -- is related to the benzos, and while most folks supposedly don't have withdrawal symptoms from Seroquel, the ones who do may feel it in much the same way. It's less severe by far, and totally tolerable, but it's intermittently unpleasant, and it sometimes makes doing things not very enjoyable. And my mental energy has been quick to exhaust itself.

Other than that, I've been more alert and animated and able to think much more clearly. I've just been getting to sleep very late, and it's been harder, which is what the Seroquel helped me with.

And this week was the one-year anniversary of Tazendra's stroke. I've tried to not remember it, because it's easier, healthier, for me to weather grief that way, to just lose track of time and let days be days and not reminders of anything. It usually works well for me, but I can't forget the Ides of March, you know? So I'm trying to ignore the hurt as best I can and contemplating posting the silly song parody I started writing for her before she died. I spend every day mourning her loss, and it's still too near for me to spend a day celebrating her life. It's a nice sentiment, but that's for another time.

I really just . . . I just want to look in her cockeyed little goblin face and say "I missed you."

On the bright side, I wrote about 2,000 new words last night on Vengeance and Valor, and got some plotting done tonight, which is more than I've been able to do in the past year altogether, I think. It's a looong way from being done, still, but I'm hoping that being off the Seroquel will help, will be enough to get me writing regularly again. I really love this story, and don't want it to die just because I'm bipolar and the meds I need to take sometimes keep me from getting my shit together.
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
So I'm writing this scene where Valor walks in on two of the other characters fucking like randy foxes, much to their surprise. The girl immediately drags him over and starts snogging him. And then she's all "Hey, you want to go next?"

At which point I put down the imaginary pen and went "Am I EVER going to write a female character who isn't a complete tart?"

And then I was like, oh, no that's not my problem. After a couple of days of looking at that, especially if he was being all bookish and disheveled and, on one memorable occasion, bareass naked, I'd be fucking flipping out. No way was she going to let him escape.

Poor Valor, at the mercy of my casting decisions.

I'm trying to be a little more realistic with this book, just to keep things interesting for me, and a little less predictable, but I'm afraid it's completely predictable: everyone Valor meets is going to have a serious think about trying to fuck him. Because I am just not that good at keeping my personal tastes out of what I write.

SOOOOO. Anyone willing to help me with some light French-language dirty-talking?

I have the following:

"Embrasse-moi!" Max exclaimed, shaking him by the arm. "Je t'en prie! Baisez-moi, maintenant! I was close!"

I was trying for: "Kiss me." "I'm begging you! Fuck me now!" Both informal and desperate.

Also:

"Um. Yeah. Okay," he said, sounding a little shocked. "Are you sure?"

"Ne sois pas bĂȘte! Of course I'm sure!"

Which should be "Don't be stupid!" Rather insulting. Possibly with a little affection.

And:

"Would you like to be next?" Which I haven't made any headway on yet.

So . . . how badly did I fuck up?
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
So I'm writing this scene where Valor walks in on two of the other characters fucking like randy foxes, much to their surprise. The girl immediately drags him over and starts snogging him. And then she's all "Hey, you want to go next?"

At which point I put down the imaginary pen and went "Am I EVER going to write a female character who isn't a complete tart?"

And then I was like, oh, no that's not my problem. After a couple of days of looking at that, especially if he was being all bookish and disheveled and, on one memorable occasion, bareass naked, I'd be fucking flipping out. No way was she going to let him escape.

Poor Valor, at the mercy of my casting decisions.

I'm trying to be a little more realistic with this book, just to keep things interesting for me, and a little less predictable, but I'm afraid it's completely predictable: everyone Valor meets is going to have a serious think about trying to fuck him. Because I am just not that good at keeping my personal tastes out of what I write.

SOOOOO. Anyone willing to help me with some light French-language dirty-talking?

I have the following:

"Embrasse-moi!" Max exclaimed, shaking him by the arm. "Je t'en prie! Baisez-moi, maintenant! I was close!"

I was trying for: "Kiss me." "I'm begging you! Fuck me now!" Both informal and desperate.

Also:

"Um. Yeah. Okay," he said, sounding a little shocked. "Are you sure?"

"Ne sois pas bĂȘte! Of course I'm sure!"

Which should be "Don't be stupid!" Rather insulting. Possibly with a little affection.

And:

"Would you like to be next?" Which I haven't made any headway on yet.

So . . . how badly did I fuck up?
naamah_darling: The right-side canines of a wolf's skull; the upper canine is made of gold. (Travis Hearts)
To be exact, 2,800 words of discipline and flogging and hurt/comfort, ending with boy kissing.

And she looked upon it and pronounced it good.

Like a red, red pony.

I'm going to go and get some fuckin' sleep. I'll get back to sexing Valor up tomorrow.

Don't think I've forgotten about V&V!
naamah_darling: The right-side canines of a wolf's skull; the upper canine is made of gold. (Travis Hearts)
To be exact, 2,800 words of discipline and flogging and hurt/comfort, ending with boy kissing.

And she looked upon it and pronounced it good.

Like a red, red pony.

I'm going to go and get some fuckin' sleep. I'll get back to sexing Valor up tomorrow.

Don't think I've forgotten about V&V!
naamah_darling: The right-side canines of a wolf's skull; the upper canine is made of gold. (Travis Tame)
Would any of you lovely, kinky folks be so kind as to talk to me briefly about the sensations produced by various strap-like implements? I'm writing a scene with both of these things as optional accessories.

For reference, I am very familiar with the end of a well-worn belt, about 1.5" wide and choked up to about 18" of free-swinging length.

I am wondering about tawses and shorter straps, the quality ones made of multiple layers of stitched and burnished leather.

What do the straps feel like, compared to a single-thickness belt?

How does the sensation a split-tongued tawse produces differ from those produced by a single-width strap of similar length? Do you feel pinching between the tails of the tawse? Given equal force and stroke length, which is more painful? Do the marks show the individual tails with paler welting in between (this is what I seem to recall reading)? Would a devil's tail style tawse like the second depicted below actually be more painful? And would it leave distinctly diamond-shaped marks?

Tawse 1, Scottish two-tailed. 21" x 1.5", tails 8.5" Source. Tawse 2, "devil's tail" design. 18.5" Source.

Strap 1. 16" x 1.5" Source Strap 2. 17" x 1.5" Source. I want one of the latter very badly, incidentally.

Any input you have, really, would be wonderful to have.

I plan on researching this in person if I can find anyone with the right toys, but that might be a little while, and the scene is happening presently.

Go for it in comments, or you may email me if you wish the discussion to remain private (naamah at gmail). Really appreciate it, youall. You always help me make my character's life such a delightful hell.

(Obviously got over the block from last night and regained interest. I just needed to sweeten the deal by making him go pick out what gets used on him. Fun times.)
naamah_darling: The right-side canines of a wolf's skull; the upper canine is made of gold. (Travis Tame)
Would any of you lovely, kinky folks be so kind as to talk to me briefly about the sensations produced by various strap-like implements? I'm writing a scene with both of these things as optional accessories.

For reference, I am very familiar with the end of a well-worn belt, about 1.5" wide and choked up to about 18" of free-swinging length.

I am wondering about tawses and shorter straps, the quality ones made of multiple layers of stitched and burnished leather.

What do the straps feel like, compared to a single-thickness belt?

How does the sensation a split-tongued tawse produces differ from those produced by a single-width strap of similar length? Do you feel pinching between the tails of the tawse? Given equal force and stroke length, which is more painful? Do the marks show the individual tails with paler welting in between (this is what I seem to recall reading)? Would a devil's tail style tawse like the second depicted below actually be more painful? And would it leave distinctly diamond-shaped marks?

Tawse 1, Scottish two-tailed. 21" x 1.5", tails 8.5" Source. Tawse 2, "devil's tail" design. 18.5" Source.

Strap 1. 16" x 1.5" Source Strap 2. 17" x 1.5" Source. I want one of the latter very badly, incidentally.

Any input you have, really, would be wonderful to have.

I plan on researching this in person if I can find anyone with the right toys, but that might be a little while, and the scene is happening presently.

Go for it in comments, or you may email me if you wish the discussion to remain private (naamah at gmail). Really appreciate it, youall. You always help me make my character's life such a delightful hell.

(Obviously got over the block from last night and regained interest. I just needed to sweeten the deal by making him go pick out what gets used on him. Fun times.)
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
A couple of people have mentioned it now, and I thought I'd touch on it again really briefly.

Vengeance and Valor is not going away forever. I'm looking into publishing options for it, but as these include actual publication with an erotica publisher, I've been advised to stop posting until I am clear on where it's going to wind up. Some publishers count what I've done as previously published, some don't. None of them are real keen on having the whole thing available for free elsewhere.

There is a pretty good chance, however, that if Pride and Prostitutes does well, I'll just serialize the rest of V&V here. More motivation to donate, and keep donating, even if it's just a couple of bucks.

Whatever happens, the book needs to be finished first, and that is what I'm working on doing. I had to stop posting partly because I wasn't going to be able to keep to a one chapter a week schedule. It made me sick to have to stop, I was -- and am -- truly miserable about it, but there really wasn't another option.

Anyway.

As proof of continuity, an excerpt from chapter 12:

Fury grabbed her hair again, and she dug her fingers into his arm, snarling. "You convinced she wants it, Morg?" Fury asked. "Because I don't hear her asking nicely."

"Oh, no, I'm convinced, all right. Convinced she's a slut-tongued pirate cocksucker who's craving a good fucking, even if her daddy never trained her to ask nice for it."

Vendetta spat like a wildcat, lunged out of Fury's grip and launched herself onto Morgan. She managed to slap him before he grabbed her, kissed her. She demanded entry into his mouth with her tongue, brought her legs up so that he had to catch her, and almost lost his balance.

"You just going to stand there and make promises your cock hasn't kept since the last time you had it in your mother or are you going to give it to me, you whoreson skydog whelp of a mangy spread-legged bitch?" She remembered she was supposed to ask nicely. "Pretty please."


I'm currently on chapter 14+, getting back to it after a long cold spell. I am bound and determined to tell this fucking story right to the end.
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
A couple of people have mentioned it now, and I thought I'd touch on it again really briefly.

Vengeance and Valor is not going away forever. I'm looking into publishing options for it, but as these include actual publication with an erotica publisher, I've been advised to stop posting until I am clear on where it's going to wind up. Some publishers count what I've done as previously published, some don't. None of them are real keen on having the whole thing available for free elsewhere.

There is a pretty good chance, however, that if Pride and Prostitutes does well, I'll just serialize the rest of V&V here. More motivation to donate, and keep donating, even if it's just a couple of bucks.

Whatever happens, the book needs to be finished first, and that is what I'm working on doing. I had to stop posting partly because I wasn't going to be able to keep to a one chapter a week schedule. It made me sick to have to stop, I was -- and am -- truly miserable about it, but there really wasn't another option.

Anyway.

As proof of continuity, an excerpt from chapter 12:

Fury grabbed her hair again, and she dug her fingers into his arm, snarling. "You convinced she wants it, Morg?" Fury asked. "Because I don't hear her asking nicely."

"Oh, no, I'm convinced, all right. Convinced she's a slut-tongued pirate cocksucker who's craving a good fucking, even if her daddy never trained her to ask nice for it."

Vendetta spat like a wildcat, lunged out of Fury's grip and launched herself onto Morgan. She managed to slap him before he grabbed her, kissed her. She demanded entry into his mouth with her tongue, brought her legs up so that he had to catch her, and almost lost his balance.

"You just going to stand there and make promises your cock hasn't kept since the last time you had it in your mother or are you going to give it to me, you whoreson skydog whelp of a mangy spread-legged bitch?" She remembered she was supposed to ask nicely. "Pretty please."


I'm currently on chapter 14+, getting back to it after a long cold spell. I am bound and determined to tell this fucking story right to the end.
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
Chapter 8 of Vengeance and Valor is up at [livejournal.com profile] fever_dreams.

Virginia's arc ends with her discovering her real name, and with pirate shagging! She really, really can't call herself Virginia any more.

This marks the end of the first part of the book, the two origin arcs for the main characters. I am really, really happy with how this has gone so far, and feel confident and happy about the rest of the project.

Announcement:

I am taking a break for a while! I will try to make sure you have something to read in the interim so that you don't get too bored! I have no idea what form that will take -- possibly just a random sex scene between two characters you've never met -- but . . . hey, that's the fun.

There are two reasons for the brief hiatus:

1) Wow! Eight weeks of weekly posting! I am tired and need a break of a couple weeks to get a lead on myself again.

2) I am looking into publication for this thing!

As much as I thrive on your immediate feedback -- I really do; it has really kept me going -- and as much as I wanted to be able to do this entire thing for donations only, my financial situation has changed to the point that I need to take the short-term hit and start taking a longer view. After having looked at how romance/erotica e-publishing works -- it is way more sane and reasonable than print publication, and much kinder to the writer. Donations have trailed off -- not a rebuke, just an observation! I think this stands a good chance of helping me get where I need to be: bringing in regular income.

The major question here is whether the open posting on these first eight chapters counts as "previously published" for purposes of submitting this work to a publisher. This is not a question you or I can answer, so I have made enquiries. Nobody's gotten back to me yet. I am waiting to hear before I make a final decision about how to proceed. If it doesn't count, I'll be finishing V&V up privately and submitting it. These chapters might have to come down at that point, I don't know.

If that works out -- and if I can just get them to let me submit it, I think it will -- you will be able to buy a complete e-book for less than the average donation has been. Out of that, I will get somewhere around 40% of the sale price. This is a really good deal for the readers and, with a professional publishing machine behind it, a really good deal for me. That security would make me more likely to actually write the two sequels for this book, the three prequels, the background novels for Savage and Sin and Fury, and so on and so forth, not to mention the kajillion other ideas I have unrelated to my steampunk Victoriana setting.

If it doesn't work out, nothing changes. I go back to posting, and once it's done I can maybe devote some time to a website, publicity, art, stuff like that.

For those who have already donated, I will make sure that if this sees publication, you get a copy of the book if you want one. I've kept everyone's email address written down. Please know that you have my utmost gratitude. Thank you.

This has not been an easy decision to make, even though nothing is decided. I hope you all understand where I'm coming from.

Hey, from your side, either way this goes, the rest of the book will get written, and it will be available! It's not going away forever, I promise!

Thank you, everyone who has been reading, everyone who has been donating, and everyone who has been commenting. That last, especially, means the world to me.

More discussion later. Right now: things to do!
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
Chapter 8 of Vengeance and Valor is up at [livejournal.com profile] fever_dreams.

Virginia's arc ends with her discovering her real name, and with pirate shagging! She really, really can't call herself Virginia any more.

This marks the end of the first part of the book, the two origin arcs for the main characters. I am really, really happy with how this has gone so far, and feel confident and happy about the rest of the project.

Announcement:

I am taking a break for a while! I will try to make sure you have something to read in the interim so that you don't get too bored! I have no idea what form that will take -- possibly just a random sex scene between two characters you've never met -- but . . . hey, that's the fun.

There are two reasons for the brief hiatus:

1) Wow! Eight weeks of weekly posting! I am tired and need a break of a couple weeks to get a lead on myself again.

2) I am looking into publication for this thing!

As much as I thrive on your immediate feedback -- I really do; it has really kept me going -- and as much as I wanted to be able to do this entire thing for donations only, my financial situation has changed to the point that I need to take the short-term hit and start taking a longer view. After having looked at how romance/erotica e-publishing works -- it is way more sane and reasonable than print publication, and much kinder to the writer. Donations have trailed off -- not a rebuke, just an observation! I think this stands a good chance of helping me get where I need to be: bringing in regular income.

The major question here is whether the open posting on these first eight chapters counts as "previously published" for purposes of submitting this work to a publisher. This is not a question you or I can answer, so I have made enquiries. Nobody's gotten back to me yet. I am waiting to hear before I make a final decision about how to proceed. If it doesn't count, I'll be finishing V&V up privately and submitting it. These chapters might have to come down at that point, I don't know.

If that works out -- and if I can just get them to let me submit it, I think it will -- you will be able to buy a complete e-book for less than the average donation has been. Out of that, I will get somewhere around 40% of the sale price. This is a really good deal for the readers and, with a professional publishing machine behind it, a really good deal for me. That security would make me more likely to actually write the two sequels for this book, the three prequels, the background novels for Savage and Sin and Fury, and so on and so forth, not to mention the kajillion other ideas I have unrelated to my steampunk Victoriana setting.

If it doesn't work out, nothing changes. I go back to posting, and once it's done I can maybe devote some time to a website, publicity, art, stuff like that.

For those who have already donated, I will make sure that if this sees publication, you get a copy of the book if you want one. I've kept everyone's email address written down. Please know that you have my utmost gratitude. Thank you.

This has not been an easy decision to make, even though nothing is decided. I hope you all understand where I'm coming from.

Hey, from your side, either way this goes, the rest of the book will get written, and it will be available! It's not going away forever, I promise!

Thank you, everyone who has been reading, everyone who has been donating, and everyone who has been commenting. That last, especially, means the world to me.

More discussion later. Right now: things to do!
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
Chapter 7 of Vengeance and Valor is up at [livejournal.com profile] fever_dreams.

Pirate spanking!

No comment contest this week, except just commenting. I'll draw a random winner next week like always.

Pardon the briefness here. I'm trying to sort through some stuff, and have my hands a little full.

Sometime in the next week here, I'll make an announcement about V&V, but that night is not tonight. I'm starving, tired, and kind of crabby.
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
Chapter 7 of Vengeance and Valor is up at [livejournal.com profile] fever_dreams.

Pirate spanking!

No comment contest this week, except just commenting. I'll draw a random winner next week like always.

Pardon the briefness here. I'm trying to sort through some stuff, and have my hands a little full.

Sometime in the next week here, I'll make an announcement about V&V, but that night is not tonight. I'm starving, tired, and kind of crabby.
naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
Chapter 6 of Vengeance and Valor is up at [livejournal.com profile] fever_dreams!

This week we have catfighting teenagers and our brave heroine waxes piratical with some truly lovely swearing. When it comes to Princesses of Thuringia, there can be only one!

Special thanks to Sargon, who added some great stuff to the chapter.

Also a huge thanks to [livejournal.com profile] karohemd, who has volunteered to take one for the team and translate various bits and bobs into German. Thank you!

Thanks, too, to everyone who suggested names for pirate ships. That was a lot of fun, and you guys came up with some awesome names. I'm not sure I can pick favorites, but you can bet that some of them will be showing up later on! If you hit the comments to the last chapter, you can see most of them. The suggestions were really excellent.

The winner of this week's contest has been chosen and will be notified via email presently, and . . . it's time for a new contest!

This week's theme is . . . Mad Science! While we enjoy the adventures of Virginia, let's not forget about Valor, who is no doubt dreaming up new and dangerous devices for Captain Savage to enjoy!

You too can join in the fun! Just come up with a ridiculous-sounding name for a mad science device, and tell me what it does! Bonus points if the acronym spells something fun!

Take these examples:

Dr Fable's Paraelectric Omni-Polar Gun! The P.O.P. Gun is a handheld bolt array which delivers an electric jolt capable of felling a charging Scotsman in his tracks! What it lacks in long range capabilities it makes up for in punch, and for boarding action there is no better weapon! Its rechargeable long-life battery contains enough power for six to nine bolts! The unpredictability is part of the fun of being a pirate! Its stun setting has an amazing 83% reliability, and because telling good guys from bad guys in the middle of the action can be hard, special filters are available to alter the color of the bolts. Go team Purple!

Von Draco's Zerotryptic Electro-Unified Static Bolt Array! For those who find the P.O.P. Gun to be not dangerous enough, try this high-powered bolt array, commonly called the Z.E.U.S. Cannon! This enormous rifle can fling lightning across great distances, affecting many opponents. Comes with earplugs. Use of a faraday suit is required for safe operation. Not recommended for use indoors. Do not point at pets!

Captain Venture's Narcolepsis Aura Pulse Generator comes with its own durable canvas backpack. This combination is known to its appreciators as the N.A.P. Sack, and is capable of inducing sleep in anyone within a 20' radius. Works on toddlers and sky pirates alike! Its active running time exceeds fifteen minutes, but for those desiring a longer nap, it includes a vapor dispersion unit that will permeate the target area with a soothing scent to keep the subjects sleeping peacefully. Three standard-sized canisters ship with the deluxe package: Strumpet, Low Tide, and Undead Monkey. Use of this device in a manner inconsistent with its labeling is thoroughly entertaining.

I think you get the idea! Though your descriptions certainly don't have to be quite that detailed. Or ridiculous. If the most awesome one is something that Valor turns out to need someday, you may see it appear! I will be putting the name of everyone who enters into the pirate hat as always, though, because I love my readers like that.

In the meantime, Go and take a look, enjoy, and if you like what you are reading, please consider making a donation!





naamah_darling: "Vengeance and Valor" over a background of assorted steampunky objects. (Vengeance and Valor)
Chapter 6 of Vengeance and Valor is up at [livejournal.com profile] fever_dreams!

This week we have catfighting teenagers and our brave heroine waxes piratical with some truly lovely swearing. When it comes to Princesses of Thuringia, there can be only one!

Special thanks to Sargon, who added some great stuff to the chapter.

Also a huge thanks to [livejournal.com profile] karohemd, who has volunteered to take one for the team and translate various bits and bobs into German. Thank you!

Thanks, too, to everyone who suggested names for pirate ships. That was a lot of fun, and you guys came up with some awesome names. I'm not sure I can pick favorites, but you can bet that some of them will be showing up later on! If you hit the comments to the last chapter, you can see most of them. The suggestions were really excellent.

The winner of this week's contest has been chosen and will be notified via email presently, and . . . it's time for a new contest!

This week's theme is . . . Mad Science! While we enjoy the adventures of Virginia, let's not forget about Valor, who is no doubt dreaming up new and dangerous devices for Captain Savage to enjoy!

You too can join in the fun! Just come up with a ridiculous-sounding name for a mad science device, and tell me what it does! Bonus points if the acronym spells something fun!

Take these examples:

Dr Fable's Paraelectric Omni-Polar Gun! The P.O.P. Gun is a handheld bolt array which delivers an electric jolt capable of felling a charging Scotsman in his tracks! What it lacks in long range capabilities it makes up for in punch, and for boarding action there is no better weapon! Its rechargeable long-life battery contains enough power for six to nine bolts! The unpredictability is part of the fun of being a pirate! Its stun setting has an amazing 83% reliability, and because telling good guys from bad guys in the middle of the action can be hard, special filters are available to alter the color of the bolts. Go team Purple!

Von Draco's Zerotryptic Electro-Unified Static Bolt Array! For those who find the P.O.P. Gun to be not dangerous enough, try this high-powered bolt array, commonly called the Z.E.U.S. Cannon! This enormous rifle can fling lightning across great distances, affecting many opponents. Comes with earplugs. Use of a faraday suit is required for safe operation. Not recommended for use indoors. Do not point at pets!

Captain Venture's Narcolepsis Aura Pulse Generator comes with its own durable canvas backpack. This combination is known to its appreciators as the N.A.P. Sack, and is capable of inducing sleep in anyone within a 20' radius. Works on toddlers and sky pirates alike! Its active running time exceeds fifteen minutes, but for those desiring a longer nap, it includes a vapor dispersion unit that will permeate the target area with a soothing scent to keep the subjects sleeping peacefully. Three standard-sized canisters ship with the deluxe package: Strumpet, Low Tide, and Undead Monkey. Use of this device in a manner inconsistent with its labeling is thoroughly entertaining.

I think you get the idea! Though your descriptions certainly don't have to be quite that detailed. Or ridiculous. If the most awesome one is something that Valor turns out to need someday, you may see it appear! I will be putting the name of everyone who enters into the pirate hat as always, though, because I love my readers like that.

In the meantime, Go and take a look, enjoy, and if you like what you are reading, please consider making a donation!





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